I Am “Shining Star” and So Are You!
The hardest thing for me to do is to tell people about me and what I do. For so long (25 years) I identified as a public school music teacher. Before that, I was a student. Then a private piano teacher, which I still am. I am a mom even though my two daughters are in college–one away and one still at home. I am the daughter of aging parents who appreciate as much time as I can spend with them–I live 4 hours away.
That’s me on the outside. On the inside, I am spiritual, vulnerable, sensitive to energy, and I am a channel for sounds. I discovered this side of me during a challenging time in my life. It was a betrayal of sorts that took me to that dark-night-of-my-soul place. I didn’t even know what that was. I was raised in a household with no religious or spiritual leanings. I’d say, Agnostic. I was driven to keep up with my two older brothers, please my parents and to stay invisible to my parents after a certain hour of the night when Dad would be drunk and unpredictable.
This betrayal was the pivotal point of the change in direction of my life. It caused me to find my first energy worker and attend the Center for Spiritual Living. It helped me to find my spiritual side and to realize how supported I am in every way. I looked into my soul and found my true self. I discovered that teaching in the public schools was no longer fulfilling me. I even tried teaching music in my own school for babies, toddlers and preschoolers, which was fun, but during that time, I was diagnosed and treated for breast cancer. That could have been a sign…I kept at it. Then I got divorced after a good 20 year marriage. We were both music teachers, so it was an obvious departure as I transitioned into my new self.
I have spent a lot of my life feeling that something was wrong with me. I was told I was fat by family members (so I believed it) and always looked for ways to be more healthy–exercise (I was a swimmer, runner, tennis player, gymnast, dancer, etc) and food (I quit dieting and looked for ways to eat that would make me feel better–Zone, 40-30-30, Paleo, Organic, Raw Food, Vegan), affirmations, meditation, spiritual classes, life coaching. And I finally discovered my true self and what lights me up–my soul purpose (after being a mom). I am Shining Star. I perform. When I perform on stage, I light up. When I have attention on me, the entire audience feels that light and energy radiated back to them.
I spent some time wondering what kind of performing I was being called to do, and how I could do more of that? When I told people about this new discovery, they would suggest acting in our local community theater. So I auditioned and performed in three plays. That was really fun, and it felt like home. I had never been in a play before, but it felt like I had done this a lot. Yep, past life. I also was performing at the piano and singing for the Center. I had previously been the choir director, but it went the way of teaching music…not loving it (even though I was amazing at it). All of these performing avenues energized me to some extent, but there was still something missing.
At the same time that I was finding my true self, I had discovered toning and crystal bowls. My energy healer had introduced these tools to me. In our sessions, I usually ended up toning. She and other psychic friends saw me doing something with toning. I went into discovery mode and wanted to know what that would look like. I didn’t get a clear vision, but a clear answer to “just do it”. “Do what?” I asked. I finally listened and heard that I was to do a regular, daily practice. I settled on the simple practice of Toning the Chakras (you can do it too, it’s here). As I did that practice more, I became more aware of other ways that sound healing could be used to help others. I taught a few classes and had a regular weekly toning group. It was at one of those toning groups that some others suggested we combine the toning with Reiki (I had received my first levels of Reiki attunement) so we tried it on each other. Then I did more with other groups. Then I invited friends over to experience it one-on-one and eventually tried it at a distance and recording the sessions. Recently I did my first Skype session.
It was this B-School Woo-woo Crew that supported me in exploring the distance aspects of what I was doing–Reiki/Sound Healing. All along the way, my gifts were developing (and still are). I have become a channel of sound that does magic for the client. I still kept seeing myself standing on stage, performing “Sound Washing” for large groups of people. (The term “Sound Washing” came to me in a meditation.) So my energy healer and I saw each other at a Sound Healing Conference serendipitously and she said, “why aren’t you doing this at the Center?” I said I was, I had held classes and such. She said, “no, I mean in the service.” Gulp. I knew she was right, I had felt the same thing. I had a good relationship with the minister. He seemed open. How hard could it be to pitch this? So I did. He was so gentle with me when the tears came and my throat closed up. And he said yes. The Center opened their hearts and received my Sound Washings for the 2 minute meditation once a month for 6 months. So many people told me how special that was. Some came to the service specifically because they saw my Facebook post that I would be there.
And now….here I am ready to embark on the first conference where I get to do what I do and show people who “get it” how it works and how they can do it too. And best of all, I get to shine on stage performing Sound Washings! I am so excited to be a part of the BeGreat Conference in Seattle in October, 2015. Thank you for the invitation. Thank you for all of your support. We will all find our way together, supporting each other. We are all shining in the world, sharing our gifts and making a great living doing it!