When I’m aligned, I feel easy, effortless, and light.
It terrifies me.
Because who am I without my pain? Who am I without drama, attachments, and need?
I’ve spent so long living in the space behind my personality, I don’t know what it’s like to stand in my skin – whole, happy, open.
But that’s the goal, isn’t it?
We battle our habits – our thoughts and emotions – the daily swing of up and down, happy and sad – trying to reach this place always available yet just out of reach. Not because it’s far or hard to find. But because we’re scared to find it.
Because when you are aligned, you know your truth. You see your silly choices – the relationships, food cravings, addictions, hesitations. You see them all for the distractions that they are.
Suddenly what occupies your mind 90% of the time becomes meaningless.
You know you are the completeness beyond it all.
Living aligned asks you to take action. Not unfocused, desperate action in the hope of reciprocation and reward. But true, guided action that comes up through you like a wave swells before carrying on to the shore.
You feel both out of control and fully centered at the same time. You know your mission and hear the call to achieve it. You see the path and all you are asked to do is take a step.
But your mind can be a jealous friend. It questions what comes next, who you think you are, what you think you’re worthy of.
Surely not this. Not divinely-inspired, trust-with-no-guarantee action. Not you.
So you stop.
You reach for the bag of chips, hop on Facebook, scroll Pinterest till you’re overwhelmed and tired. Until you’re back to being who you allow yourself to think you are. Trapped behind your personality – the clingy needs and insecurities we all wear as our masks to make it through the day.
But if you want more – if you want to explore the uncomfortable thrill of standing, empty and open, waiting for the universe to fill you – then you learn to listen.
You lay your ear to the heart of your ground and you wait. You bear witness to your fears and your freak out. You hold steady through the storm of what-ifs and not-enoughs and just wait.
In silence. In faith. In love.
And allow your truth to wash over you. To come through you and into the world, and then you act on what you hear.
Because that’s living an aligned life.
Stepping up and then moving your fears aside so your true purpose – your true gifts – can shine through.
So you can be who you already are.
A miracle incarnate.